IM WAITING

Push to the side and sometimes put on hold for you but still I wait, plans to get together real soon so we can conversate,on our past present future and things that passed us by,or how everything you said was true simply turned into a lie,or how you use to tell me jus how much you really care,then flip the script and act as if I'm not even there,or when you called me baby honey sweetie boo and wife,or introduce me as your main woman in your life,but now all is changed and the feeling isn't the same,and all that felt like love has quickly turned to pain,
it seems as if we lost that connection we once had jus before,and the spark we had between us well there isn't anymore,and all the feelings shared that was oh so familiar,including all the things we had in common that were so very similar,but they say opposites attract and maybe they do,
and we're not exactly the same so that saying may be true,and through it all no matter what with you I still remained down,and all the hurt that I been through is gone come back around

MY SICKNESS

AS I LAY HERE WONDERING,WONDERING Y I FEEL DIS WAY,I THINK OF HIM AND HOW HE MAKES ME FEEL.I REPLAY IN DIS CRAZY MIND OF MINES WHAT EVERY MOMENT SPENT WITH HIM HAS MEANT,HOW I FELT WITH EVERY TOUCH,EVERY KISS,AND I SAY TO MYSELF DAMN!WHO IS HIM TO ME TO BE ABLE TO INVADE MY BODY LIKE A SICKNESS I CANT GET RID OF EVEN THOUGH I TRIED SO MANY TIMES BEFORE?MY FEELINGS WLDNT ALLOW IT!SO NOW I KNOW EXCATLY WHAT HE MEANT WHEN HE CALLED ME SICKNESS.AND AS I LAY HERE WONDERING Y I FEEL DA WAY I DO?I REALIZE ITS ALL BECAUSE OF U!!!!!!!

DEAR HATERS

I LOVE YALL DEARLY AND AS LONG AS IM HERE YOU'LL ALWAYS HAVE ME TO HATE ON MONEY DONT MAKE ME I MAKE MONEY I GOT MY MIND SET RITE AND YOU HATEN ASS NOBODY'S NEED TO GET YA SHYT RITE BITCHES GON TALK REGARDLESS AND CONTINUE TO HATE AND HELL I WANT THEM TO CUZ IF YA KNOW ME YA KNW WHATS REAL AND ALL DAT HE SAY SHE SAY IS 4 LIL ASS KIDS I DONT PLAY LIL CHILDISH GAMES SAVE DAT 4 YOUR KIDS IM TRYNA MAKE STACKS SO I CAN DO IT BIG SHYT I LAUGH AT YOU HATERS AND KEEP DOIN ME AND I DONT NEED NO NIGGA TAKIN CARE OF ME IM WHAT U CALL A STUCK UP BITCH CUZ I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU OR THE NEXT AND IF YALL KEEP HATEN THIS HARD I MITE HAVE TO PUT YOU ON PAYROLL AND RITE YOU A CHECK.........HAHAHHAHHHAHAHAH
ITS NOTHIN 2 A BITCH IF U GOT BEEF CUM C ME DONT LET THE PRETTY FACE FOOL YOU.........

LONELY

DARKNESS FILLS THE SKY AND AS THE CLOUDS DISAPPEAR I WALK ALONE IN THE NIGHT SURROUNDED BY SILENCE AND THE WHISTLING OF THE WIND WIT NO ONE IN SIGHT.THE TREES WAVE FROM SIDE TO SIDE AS THEY CREATE A HOWLING SOUND DISTRACTED BY A SMALL RUSTLING NOISE,UPOON THE GROUND I TURN QUICKLY AROUND STARTLED BUT I SEE NOTHING AS I THINK TO MYSELF AM I THE ONLY ONE HERE?STILL ALONE BUT INJECTED WITH A SMALL DOSE OF FEAR I CONTINUE TO STUMBLE NEAR THE MIST OF DARKNESS.CLOSER IN CLOSER I STRIVE,FILLED WITH SORROW AND PAIN FROM THESE FEELINGS CALLED LOVE.SHOWERED WITH SADNESS LIKE RAINDROPS FROM ABOVE AND AS MY HEART MELTS FROM THIS THING WE KNOW AS LOVE I STILL CONTINUE THIS WALK ALONE IN THE DARK TO WHERE I DONT KNOW.ON A PATH TO NOWHERE AS I WEEP WHAT I SOE ON THIS JOURNEY ALONE I SHIVER FROM THIS BREEZE BUT I STEADILY WALK WITH MY ARMS IN MY SLEEVES TO WHERE?WHATS MY DESTINATION?WHATS THE PLAN?STILL NOT KNOWING THE ANSWER I CONTINUE YO WALK ALONE IN THE DARKNESS FROM BEGINNING TO END.

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Love I gave and lies you told looking forward to dreams you sold and promises you made to me but now they are broken and things you never told me bout are now out in the open and all the while I sat back as if it all was fine when deep down in my mind I knew it all the time yet still I played the fool and continued to ignore the signs thinkin that there's really no other person in your life for I'm the one you come home to every night and I'm the one and only one who's been here by your side and even tho from time to time we tend to fuss and fight we always let it slide as if everythings alright but lately you have changed and we've slowly grown apart and I don't think you feel the same as I do in your heart so love for you ill always have and your still apart of me and I thank you for the beautiful baby that we have conceived tho this may be hard to do I have to put us to an end but who knew the other person was your suppose to be bestfriend

i can get used to dis

so i am/i was a person who was emotionally and physically attached to her cell fone i jus had to have it like some ppl jus need sex i needed my fone i cldnt b witout it i cldnt function witout it!i think it bein stolen has been the best thing to happen to me in a while!when my cell fone was gne so was the negativity the heartache all dat emtional ish.i realize im @ peace now im nt constantly arguing wit ppl im nt in no drama all because i have no fone and its like i cut myself off frm the outside wrld and it feels good.there is some low points but as lng ass i can tweet im nt to worried about talk.n to dumb niggas and stoopid frinns!i clda been gt a new fone a 100 times if i wanted too but i chose nt 2.my daughter is shur happy lol i think she thought i wld put the fone b4 her nice to prove her wrng also lol!but who knows when ill decide to get a fone i really truly think i can get used to dis!

wow lol

so im so tired and exuasted and throwed off i left the groceries in the car lmao and dey gonna stay there!lol times like dis i wish i had a man hehehehe!i shld call some1 jus to get the stuff for me!!!!

anyways o m g im so so sick of ppl on twitter tryin to crack at me its like i try to b nice and hold conversation but im nt fuckin interested!i swear i b want.n to blk dese thirdty muther fuckers yu think if i ignored dem dey wld gt the idea but naw dey wanna keep writin me its like wtf!i dnt do internet daitin pls gt off dat ish!

this is my last weekend in seattle probaly ever i hate it here so much cant wait to gt away.ppl r so stupid evn your closest frinns and i jjus need to clear my mind and rid myself of all da bs!cant wait.

negro pls

so im chillin wit my ex the other day on sum coo coo aiite type of shit we can kick it r wht nt.anyways tell me y we like talk.n and crap and he starts to ask questions dat bought up old feelins.kinda made me wanna b with him again but i dnt have time for it.he gt a baby mom and dey b on some otha type shit shes da reason i cant fuck wit him no more she always on that lets b a happy family type ish and personally i thought he was still fucking her.i really have a strong intution i kno they were matterfact.anywho he starts to tell me im still his sickness.dats wht he used to call me and askd me to stay in seattle like for me.negro like if yu aint marrying me do wht yu can to keep me y do yu think i wld basically stay summwhere i dnt wanna b 4 yu he den lost his mine o well i dnt have time for it.

so lately ive been super depress.dnt really understand y but i am and this feelin is start.n to really get on my nerves.every1 keep say.n lets talk about it lets talk about it.like yo i appreciate it but i dnt kno yu.sometimes we must deal wit our problems ourself and on our own.were like the only person dat can help ourselves cus reguardless of wht yu tell me it might make me feel better for that moment in time but guess what i ma still have the same problem at the end of day thats y i dnt waste my time opening up to ppl.ive been that way my whole life plus i dnt like ppl in my bizness like dat feel me.

NEW TATTOO

YAY GT MY 5TH TATTOO YESTERDAY AND I LOVE IT!THERE IS JUS SUM.N ABOUT TATTOOS I MA GET ME ANOTHER ONE NEXT WEEK!I WANT IT TO B SOMETHING IN HINDI ON MY WRIST!IT SHLD B REAL CUTE WERE GONNA SEE!

GRR

man o man i need some new ppl to follow on twitter.i dnt wanna complain but shit they borin and i want some new fun interting ppl in my timeline nt no wack corny ppl.lol wht i wldnt do jus to follow dis 1 twigga again but we agreed nt to follow eachother anymore.my timeline jus isnt the same witout him nomore though shld i ask him to let me follow him again lol.but hmm if yu on twitter r if yu no of anyone on twitter worth following pls pls pls let me knom

i gt this feeling

i have a feelin im gonna cut every1 and everything out my life.i wish i cld disapear to like a deserted island somewhere and it jus b me and my daughter.some ppl is jus so stoopid and i dnt have the time to deal.i wanna change my number,change my email,shit jus cut off all means of communication wit every1.im jus so tired im stressin myself over other ppl and i dnt need to do dat to myself.i find myself upset and angry for no reason.yu wld never kno though cus i hide it so well.but im tired of smilin n ppl face pretended everything alright jus for the sake of others.i mean man i dnt wanna b mean but i dnt kno wht else to b the old me is definetly no more.no more sparing other ppl feelings no more let.n ppl take my kindnes for weakness.im done so done done with every1 and dey bullshit

CANT TRUST NO ONE EVN YOUR CLOSEST FRINNS

have a friend ever fucked yo man and ended up pregnant.what did yu do or what wld yu do.dis ish is crazy to me i cant see how some1 wld do dat to they suppose to be bestfriend.yu hear about this happening to other ppl but yu never think it wld happen in your circle trip part about it ol girl wants to keep the baby and possibly build a relationship wit dude.y wld yu keep a baby for a dude who was in love wit your bestfriend and still wants to b with her i jus dnt understand how yu cld b so grimey and nt even have a lil bit of remorse for wht yu did.at the end of da day the shit is fucked up but at the same time same time its good it happened cus yu realize yu dnt need someone r ppl like dat in your life.dey both shld have know better if yu ask me dey derserve eachother cus thats sum grimey trffling ass shit

O M GEE DUDE

o mai gosh i can honestly say i really really like dis dude but @ dis same time he gets on my nerves lol.ow cld dis b.i guess cause the good really out weigh all da bad about him.da boi really do gt a good head on his shoulder i dnt think he use it very often but still he do lol.we can work on his faults lol.i dnt think he really knos how i feel about him lol and im nt gonna tell him.we cooh rght now and i like that whatever happens happens though.im nt say.n i want a relationship wit him cus i really dnt only because i dnt see him ass the boyfriend type.he still young he really dnt understand to much about relationships but aye who am i to speak on his behalf.he so cute yu guys though and funny lol he always makes me smile and i really appreciate dat.i find myself carin about him more and more everyday lol im nt shur if dats a good r bad thing im glad hes in my life.

WHAT IS ONE 2 DO

its funny how shit happens and y it happens.have yu ever thought to yourself y is dis happening to me or how cld dis happen to me and it jus dnt make sense.how do yu find the answer what must yu do to figure it out do yu even try to figure it out r do yu jus let it be